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Dom, thank you for paying your respects.

But with all due respect, we have [URL="http://www.mercuryserver.com/forums/showthread.php?t=62549"]THIS[/URL] thread dedicated to Steve. Please continue there.

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i would really love it if dig would play part of jibs mcast set. i used to email digs way back in the day about jibbys great sets but he never responded...

since digs show is just under an hour we should try and get him to play his current mcast set from around minute approx 105 to 157...that part of the set is pheonominal imo and would be the ultimate tribute for jibs.

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if i may suggest another set of his that would be so worthy of a kiss 100 guest mix is

Steve "Jibgolly" James - Live @ Pensacola, FL (April 14, 2007) SET 2 PART 4 :shock:

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How do i tell this story? Will I say the wrong thing? How do I begin?

Three years to the day i met Steve James. We did not even say one word to each other that day. The day was Mercury sessions @ 422. Pensacola. You see back in 05 there was not an ounce of light left in me. Addiction and all the evil little things that go along with addiction had me wrapped up. I was scared. I was full of shame. I could see it just around the corner.

And i remember leaving the get down three years ago thinking, man [I]that guy fucking tore it up..[/I]

Two weeks later i threw in the towel and sought help.

The darkness was all around me and I disconnected myself. For a year or so i rarely listened to the music.

New years 06 to 2007. Second dose of the man Steve James.[I] Whoa.....this guy is lighting it up. [/I]

You see i have been gone a long time at this point. I was nervous. Still some fear.This time Steve and I connected. I could tell he knew that i was listening to everything and he knew that i knew that he could tell that I was listening. Still we maybe said a few words. But he knew that I knew. He and hunter lit it up.

Steve's selections really impressed me and in a major way hearing him play that days brought me to the point I am at right now. I was lucky. I fell i n love with the music all over again.

It was not until the MC meet up in Pensacola that I got to know Steve James. My dear friend Hafid (The_Light) asked me to play that night at the Jelly. Talking about shite'n in ya pants man. That was me. You see I played records for years before addiction kicked me in the nuts. But to play at this event after all the trails in my life. Man i was stoked but still not confident at all. And an angel must have done the mixing because I played just like i used to. i was able to vibe for the first time in years. Steve James approached me as soon as I got there. He remembered me from new years and we had im'd some. He was such a nice guy. Full of care. Also, He was listening when I played. I mean listening.

You can always tell.

Those who hear the music first.

Steve was one of those people. His love inspired me. His passion motivated me. His humor let me know that "it" was ok. His recognition gave me goose bumps.

Like all of you.

Halloween 2008. Albert missed his flight. I got to play with Steve James and Maegen as a replacement. One of the worst sets i have ever played. Complete train wreck. Doing that is not so bad. Unless you are on a roof top in Pensacola with many ears in front of you. I knew that people were listening. Especially Steve James because he was standing right beside me.You see this is when the poop has reached the lower leg. Thinking man this shit sucks. Steve was so cool though. He knew. He blew it off. He knew I had love and his reconition ment the world to me. i all most didn't make it. The darkness just about one with me so to get that from him made me see what and why. gave me soul. We played together at the meet up. He was so much fun to play with.

I made up my mind that weekend.

I am going to share this gift.

Make up for lost time.

Spread the vibe.

Represent the vibe.

Not take those things for granted.

Appreciate my life.

Be a better friend.

Tell my friends i love them.

Share my regrets.

etc...

And then the unimaginable...........

This mix is about love. Love for the music.

On Halloween weekend Steve James played Love Chemical by Pole Folder two times. he said it was the one that gave him the goose bumps at this time. The instrumental version. I remember asking him if that was love Chemical. His response was....Thank you for knowing that. Wow!

That said so much more. I barely even knew the guy but he motivated me in so many ways.

I picked these tracks based on what Steve and i played. Love Chemical is on here twice for Steve. To honer what he gave to me. Love. Any time you hear Love Chemical hold a lighter up for Steve and remember. Remember that we are all connected. I hope you enjoy this mix. Making it was one of the most emotional experiences.

I am so sorry about our loss. We must remain strong. Tell the people you love that you them.

Even the birds share the song.

I want every one to know that he seemed really happy on the decks that weekend. i am so sorry for the loss of such a good guy.

I hope you enjoy the mix.

[B][SIZE=5]R.I.P Steve James. This one is for you. [/SIZE][/B] [URL]http://www.mediafire.com/?dty2ywmjzzm[/URL]

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[quote=Garrick;675230]knowing him personally for a long time, he did battle depression. to make your point, he WAS very charismatic and very very lively and never alluded to doing something of this magnitude. so i sincerely do NOT think that this is something anybody could have done anything about. all i can say is that he chose his path and chose to do it quietly, but always remember that he made everyone around him feel good and that's what everybody should be focusing on. he was the best of friends when i needed one and the man is in a better place.[/quote]

right on man. time to heal. remember the good.

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[quote=scifi pi;675239]I know for a fact that the music and Mercury server were the wonderful postive light in Steve's life. As many of you have experienced first hand, Steve was a giving, kind, stand-up person. And I think that is why it is so hard to comprehend on why and how this has happened. On a recent and local level, myself and many others in Pensacola took him in with open arms and knew he had some past issues with his living arrangements in Tampa. After the Mercury Server reunion weekend here and his long drive back with Steve Graham, he realized that when he got back that he had no one in his own hometown to share the great experience he had just had. And it was a repeat from previous times coming back from Pensacola on the many occassions he came here to visit and play. No intention on discounting anyone in Tampa or anywhere else, for some reason he felt more connected and rewarded if started anew in Pensacola. I was one of the many that convinced him to come here so that he could focus on his new job/career with Walgreens and on his music. Possibly get into producing with our local progressive house head studio artist, Kevin Rockwell. I even made many efforts to get him booked once he moved. Within a week or two of him arriving, I had booked him at Pensacola's biggest EDM monthly and got him and Hafid a monthly residency at Pensacola's newest lounge. IMHO things were looking great for Steve James. After finding out on Sunday that he missed worked and had not contacted anyone, Hafid and I spent most of the day and evening looking for him. I personally and Mindy drove around Pensacola at every hotel and every Walgreens I passed by. Repeating three times just to hopefully run into him, but with no luck.

For many of us, we now know that its been a privilege and honor of knowing the better side of Steve James. That is how he should be remembered and honored. The music was his light and lifeline. It is unfortunate that it wasn't enough. I only wished he was here in Pensacola a bit longer so that he could have experienced the great love and comadrie that we have and had for him.

If anything, we need take this negative and turn to a positive. Cherish and honor your experiences and memories of him. Share those with others. Take the time to mend, fix and make peace for those that you love but are in turmoil. Show the people you love and care for with more fervor. Hug them twice. Kiss them longer. Offer your hand when not expected with even a stranger. Ever little bit counts, more than you know. Treat them like Steve treated you. Doing that would be the best honor for him and everyone he touched.

Transpire to inspire....thats what he did for me and I shall do the same.[/quote]

Never give up. much love O. press on. love you bro.

[SIZE=5][COLOR=White]422[/COLOR][/SIZE]

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Kamal....that was such a great write up.

Everyone of you are special.

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and i thought I was Jibbs only MSN buddy, I feel cheated ;) He must have spent days on end talking to all these people on this thread :shock:

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phuck'm-up Thank you !!

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I feel so shit right now can someone please pm me and tell me what the hell happened. Honestly I dont know why but I really feel bad about this I dont know the man apart from all the chats through MS. . .and normally I am such a cold hearted bastard but seriously I cried when I read he was gone...what the fuck happened and why???

RIP Jib you were a favorite of mine on MS. Hope its easier for you now. Love you.

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Terrible news - RIP Steve James... Did not know him personally, enjoyed his posts and his music for years... My condolences to those who were close to Steve and to his family. I lost someone in my care this way and know that often nothing can be done when the mind is made up... but the loss can never be comprehended or reasoned, and the pain is unbearable.

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^^^^ Good.

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[quote=DIDI;676332]phuck'm-up Thank you !![/quote]

His love for the music deserves honer. I am a better person having known him. i have seen a lot of people play records. Three Diggers Sasha etc...Steve could do what they do. He could not only bring the house together but he could hold it together and wanted too. It takes a special person to make that happen consistently. He is missed.

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[quote=88Mariner;675843]I'm with you 100%. I've been gutted the entire week and I never met Steve in person. Perhaps it's because he reminds me of me (in both good and bad ways) that has me so depleted right now. I think I may take some time off from this place and think about some stuff. I care for all of you, but time does heal wounds though it may leave the scars. I hope one day we can all find each other back on again, but right now I can't take it.

fuck[/quote]

[[quote=feather;675719]Fuck I've never been so affected by some interweb thing like this before. WTF. It's weird because the forum board is the only platform we've communicated.

It's like seeing the same face at the same club at every good gig and now that person won't be there, but fuck I wouldn't even be this affected if he was indeed some dude I see around in real life, does this make sense?

I just don't feel like posting anything else on the forum. Fuck I hate this.[/quote]

Hey guys:

Your posts above have hit me the most this week with how heart wrenched you are over Steves death.

This community of internet friends we have is very rare. I for one was welcomed by kamal in a PM a couple of posts in after I had seroiusly lost my cool on one of the threads and since then have been able to read and learn from the absolute huge wealth of information all of you as a collective have.

What I am trying to say is that in sharing our grief, all your experiences that you had with Steve, laughing at the memories you had with him, with us, [B]we[/B] all start to heal. [B][/B] [B][I]In his death we celebrate his life.[/I][/B] [B][/B] Chanty, Dancing Girl and others have all volunteered their time to chat and listen to you, use that opportunity to talk and in doing so heal.

Please don't leave ms because the next words you type may be the very words someone needs to hear. [B][/B]

[B][/B] [B][/B]

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Thanks, but there's a whole lot of you who are hurting a lot more and times like this being on the internet sucks cos you guys are all over the world.

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Respect.

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If there was one late night EST/PST person I could count on to hang out with on this site it was Jibby, one of the people that motivated me to video any show I attended. His passion of music will never be questioned and the desire to share that with all of us at MS, held in the highest regard. Even though we lived via the internet, his personality and humor got me through more than one bad day.

Hopefully this is where he is now. :Twilo:

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[quote=nick007;676394] Please don't leave ms because the next words you type may be the very words someone needs to hear.

[/quote]

So well said.

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[quote=nick007;676394][Please don't leave ms because the next words you type may be the very words someone needs to hear.[/quote]

I couldn't of said it better myself....and the other reason you shouldn't leave is because you are apart of our family now and of the foundation that keeps this site going.

As also mentioned I am hear for you if you need to talk....it may sound a bit selfish, but by talking to anyone that needs someone to talk to is also helping me in my grieving process. Hearing all the wonderful memories out there really helps to put a smile on my face when I need it most.

Jibby loved this site because of how much we all care for and help each other in their time of need.....he loved that no matter what your issue was in life you could come on here and laugh and be loved. We are a community like no other I have seen online and it brings tears of joy to my eyes to see how we have all come together in our time of need and helped each other through it all....Jibby would be so proud.

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Hello ALL,

At the age of 42 and being in the EDM community and nightclub industry off and on for 20+ years (they know me in local forums/circles as GRANDPA RAVE)...yesterday was one of the most difficult times in my life. I spent the whole day with of Steve's family (mother, mother's long-time boyfriend, and uncle). I did my best to explain to them on what an impact he has made on a worldwide level, local level and in my own life. I never left there side assisting them in every way possible in taking care of personal effects, the coroner/police paperwork, funeral home, etc. During this time, I had learned quite bit about his childhood and youth and had also gained their trust and respect in the short amount of time. For my own sake and the request of so many others, I was given the permission to see him before cremation. The details I will not post. They have entrusted me with everything to do with his music, equipment and such. His mother promised me that it would not go to waste, unused, ebay, pawnshop, etc. and I promised in return that it would be properly treated with respect and honor. Me and few others from Pensacola will be making the trip to his hometown of Port Charlotte, FL (1 hr. south of Tampa) for the family memorial service.

As soon as I get confirmation on his families funeral arrangements (time, place, address, etc), I will get that to everyone.

Sorry for the rambling...

PS - I am working getting "In memory" t-shirts done for our Pensacola Thanksgiving event. The first 50 have been donated by a friend of mine who had never met Steve but was a big fan of his sets that I burned for him on CD throughout the years. After that, I will do one time second printing making them available for pre-order purchase at a very reasonable rate.

I chose this route due the overwhelming number of emails, phone calls, texts since his family left yesterday evening and it its been mentally and emotionally draining for me to repeat myself. I'm gonna take a couple days away from everything to hopefully recharge for the upcoming tasks for the next couple weeks.

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RIP jib :(you'll be sorely missed god bless you

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OMG I didn’t realize what happened till now !?! :Scared2:

R.I.P. Jib

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[quote=scifi pi;676456]Hello ALL,

At the age of 42 and being in the EDM community and nightclub industry off and on for 20+ years (they know me in local forums/circles as GRANDPA RAVE)...yesterday was one of the most difficult times in my life. I spent the whole day with of Steve's family (mother, mother's long-time boyfriend, and uncle). I did my best to explain to them on what an impact he has made on a worldwide level, local level and in my own life. I never left there side assisting them in every way possible in taking care of personal effects, the coroner/police paperwork, funeral home, etc. During this time, I had learned quite bit about his childhood and youth and had also gained their trust and respect in the short amount of time. For my own sake and the request of so many others, I was given the permission to see him before cremation. The details I will not post. They have entrusted me with everything to do with his music, equipment and such. His mother promised me that it would not go to waste, unused, ebay, pawnshop, etc. and I promised in return that it would be properly treated with respect and honor. Me and few others from Pensacola will be making the trip to his hometown of Port Charlotte, FL (1 hr. south of Tampa) for the family memorial service.

As soon as I get confirmation on his families funeral arrangements (time, place, address, etc), I will get that to everyone.

Sorry for the rambling...

PS - I am working getting "In memory" t-shirts done for our Pensacola Thanksgiving event. The first 50 have been donated by a friend of mine who had never met Steve but was a big fan of his sets that I burned for him on CD throughout the years. After that, I will do one time second printing making them available for pre-order purchase at a very reasonable rate.

I chose this route due the overwhelming number of emails, phone calls, texts since his family left yesterday evening and it its been mentally and emotionally draining for me to repeat myself. I'm gonna take a couple days away from everything to hopefully recharge for the upcoming tasks for the next couple weeks.[/quote] oliver, you're a godsend, and stronger than i could ever be. thank you for all that you've done thus far, and continue to do.

i love the symbolism in the flyer you've done for Jelly. thanks for everything, Grandpa Rave! <3

[IMG]http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/21/l_41081802550c443b954e018843a8bd7e.jpg[/IMG]

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Mercury Rising :RockOn:

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[QUOTE=lilsensa;676527]Mercury Rising :RockOn:[/QUOTE]

:Bingo:

Respect !

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:RockOn:

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I recently did some additional artwork for his MCast show that he never got a chance to use but have forwarded to Kamal for possible use. For those that did not meet him in person, for his birthday this year, I printed Steve professional printed business cards with very similar graphics. We spent quite a bit of time earlier in the year, right after WMC in getting him some..he realized during conference that he felt a bit "naked" without a proper business card since in many situations when meeting new people that neither parties weren't able to find a pen and write legible enough to read later on or either press multiple keys on their own perspective cell phones or comprehend beyond the "salad tossing" as he would verbally put it.

I'm still working on the back, trying to select the best photo of him with a contrasting meaningful graphic background. Even though he would admittedly agree that he wasn't much of a visual person (beyond the liquid cube) persay he knew strongly what he liked and didn't like, hence for those that knew his many personal characteristics fit him to a tea. Very much like his very selective track selection and cut and dry sadistic/dark humor.

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[QUOTE=Garrick;675251]i'm trying to feel solace in knowing that he could read your comments and know how much everyone cared about him... but i am not. this is proving to be a lot more difficult than i thought. not trying to be a downer but i don't know what to do.[/QUOTE]

Garrick, I know how close you've been with Steve. Hang in there man, answers and acceptance don't always come quickly (shit, sometimes not at all). Maybe just go with the flow a little and see what comes to mind as you go. It may take some time, but won't last forever.

Feel free to talk on msn if you feel the need for it. For any reason.

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[quote=megan love;676523]oliver, you're a godsend, and stronger than i could ever be. thank you for all that you've done thus far, and continue to do.

i love the symbolism in the flyer you've done for Jelly. thanks for everything, Grandpa Rave! <3

[IMG]http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/21/l_41081802550c443b954e018843a8bd7e.jpg[/IMG][/quote]

I would have attended. But as the saying goes: far from the eyes but close to the heart.

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Damn Steve I can't believe it's been years since we've talked and this is how we link back up. I'm an old friend of Marcus, Ned and Steve from Atlanta. I used to wait tables at Bugaboo Creek with Marcus before Digital Witchcraft ever came out with their first song. Steve moved up from Florida and we all had some pretty good times bringing people back to the ZELDA house after the Liquified Parties at E50. Some of you on here might know me but for those who don't HELLO!!! I'm really bummed that I had to join this forum under these circumstances but seeing how you people reacted to Steve's passing made me want to get to know you guys. Consider me a new member of the MS family( I'm Scotch/Irish, I have a liver made of concrete, I bang goats on the regular as they have nice handlebars and I also have the tiniest balls on the face of the Universe.) I wish I could make it down there for the Jelly party but sadly I can't.

Steve buddy, I'll never forget what it was like being around you and Marcus when I was a budding dj taking my records to people's houses in a backpack. That was over six years ago now when first chilled with you guys. I don't understand why someone as nice as you always thought so lowly of himself but it seems as though you have a lot of people in this community that cared about you. I can't even begin to understand how it could be that bad but I guess that's between you and God homey. I hope you found the peace in Death that you couldn't find in life. RIP brotha.......

BTW, you still like gigantic balls on your face.;)

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[quote=Garrick;674912]............[/quote]

Garrick,

email me your phone number so we can chat bud. My email is [EMAIL="liquidjams@yahoo.com"]liquidjams@yahoo.com[/EMAIL]

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Here is a mix that a buddy of ours Rob Dowell just put up today. It's friggin beautiful and I think it might help some of you in your time of need:

[URL="http://robdowell.com/RobDowell-FreeFormNine.mp3"][COLOR=#5493b4]http://robdowell.com/RobDowell-FreeFormNine.mp3[/COLOR][/URL]

Tracklisting:

[00:00-04:11] 11.8 “Red October” (Aleksey Beloozerov Remix) [04:11-09:55] SCSI-9 “Vesna Lastic” [09:55-13:49] Paul Kalkbrenner “Azure” [13:49-17:40] Marcin Czubala “Daybreak” [17:40-22:36] The Timewriter “Travellers” (Beat Pharmacy Dub) [22:36-26:13] Sonda-Papada [26:13-31:53] Osunlade “Mommas Groove” (Jimpsters Slipped Disc Mix) [31:53-36:30] Minilogue & Decoy “Uncle Limps” (Turkish Version) [36:30-38:03] DKMA “Manga” (Adam Jace Remix) [38:03-39:50] Ben Watt “Guinea Pig” (Vocal Variation Mix) [39:50-43:41] William Besson “Come Around” (Terry Lee Brown Junior Dub Remix) [43:41-48:13] Herb LF & Azzura “Steps” (Herb LF Remix) [48:13-53:26] The Timewriter “Soul Freak Music” (Terry Lee Brown Junior Remix) [53:26-57:22] Frank Lorber, Maus & Besier “Tres” [57:22-01:05:19] Stimming “Una Pena” [01:05:19-01:07:43] Guido Schneider “Albertino” [01:07:43-01:09:13] D_Bug “Lenguaje Maquina” (Inxec Remix) [01:09:13-01:11:37] Dapayk “How Low” [01:11:37-01:17:24] Gaiser “Face Down” [01:17:24-01:19:30] 11.8 “Red October” (Aleksey Beloozerov Remix

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wrong thread.... perhaps post it in the Promos and Recommendations forum. It would take away from the meaning of the thread if half the board posted mixes in this thread to "make the grieving feel better". Hope you understand.

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[quote=CoreyVonWaters;676585] the Liquified Parties at E50[/quote]

I used to fly in from KC to Atlanta a couple times a year to go to the liquified parties. My best friend lives up in Alpharetta and we would go to the Seks parties as well. Its crazy to think that I may have crossed paths with the three of you like 7 years ago.

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I have been jamming steves mcast mix from the MS meet up all day....

I also cant get over how mind blowing this other pcola mix from Jibs is [URL]http://www.megaupload.com/?d=8RTG9RLV[/URL] (courtesy of ddr)

it just amazes me the talent steve had.....

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[quote=chuckc;676640]I have been jamming steves mcast mix from the MS meet up all day....

I also cant get over how mind blowing this other pcola mix from Jibs is [URL]http://www.megaupload.com/?d=8RTG9RLV[/URL] (courtesy of ddr)

it just amazes me the talent steve had.....[/quote]

I´m listening to that one right now, my brother is here with me and we´re both constantly picking our jaws off the floor. I´m sure they´re having a blast up there in Heaven...

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^^^^^^yeah i have been jammin that one and the mcast meet up one back and forth nonstop all day since early this mornin!!

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[quote=chuckc;676640]I have been jamming steves mcast mix from the MS meet up all day....

I also cant get over how mind blowing this other pcola mix from Jibs is [URL]http://www.megaupload.com/?d=8RTG9RLV[/URL] (courtesy of ddr)

it just amazes me the talent steve had.....[/quote]

^^^^^I was trying to explain that to Steve while I was there. There is no reason why his mixes should not be heard by the masses and I could never understand why he had difficulty finding someone who could help manage or setup nights for him so that he could be traveling and playing in front of thousands of people. His mixes are always clean and his programming and track selection is spot on for that deep, dark vortexy prog sound. It very unfortuante that he did not have the marketing savy (which in my discussions with him, he didnt seem to interested in doing it for himself) to get his feet wet and belong to some dj pool such as the collective agency.

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[quote=jarble187;676651]^^^^^I was trying to explain that to Steve while I was there. There is no reason why his mixes should not be heard by the masses and I could never understand why he had difficulty finding someone who could help manage or setup nights for him so that he could be traveling and playing in front of thousands of people. His mixes are always clean and his programming and track selection is spot on for that deep, dark vortexy prog sound. It very unfortuante that he did not have the marketing savy (which in my discussions with him, he didnt seem to interested in doing it for himself) to get his feet wet and belong to some dj pool such as the collective agency.[/quote]

I would always ask if he played any shows recently, and he would always say, "Nope, sideline city for me"....Then we would both bitch about not being able to get a gig and how most places now play top 40 ghey stuffs.

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[QUOTE=jarble187;676651]^^^^^I was trying to explain that to Steve while I was there. There is no reason why his mixes should not be heard by the masses and I could never understand why he had difficulty finding someone who could help manage or setup nights for him so that he could be traveling and playing in front of thousands of people. His mixes are always clean and his programming and track selection is spot on for that deep, dark vortexy prog sound. It very unfortuante that he did not have the marketing savy (which in my discussions with him, he didnt seem to interested in doing it for himself) to get his feet wet and belong to some dj pool such as the collective agency.[/QUOTE]

i think he enjoyed playing for his friends and people that he knew rather than a bunch of people that he had no contact previously with.