Re: NYC - mass transit strike?
MTV has its share of amusing reality shows, but clearly pop and Hip-Hop will never do it for me so the M in MTV is of little significance to me. The entire slew of the MTV Networks channels I work with includes a lot of fun and funny if not amusig shows... And of course there is the new Logo channel that is the first Gay cable network (that I dont really watch but it's a good step forward in the world).
Something I have noticed and cherish/appreciate immensely is, for the first time in my life I have not given a thought nor had any reason to even be aware or cautious about any sort of homophobia or any cause to even remember what it was like to always be somewhat aware of being treated or looked upon as different on a caily basis. Looking back at how terrified and/or alone/isolated those same things have made me feel, and to be constantly reminded of people's preconceptions and how I would consistently be anxiety ridden knowing that almost every new daily situation in my life could very well involve being classified and treated differently in some very subtle up through some blatantly obvious, at times quite aggressive. And more often than not felt nervous about having to always be prepared to prove myself in order to obtain the respect that others recieve automatically.
Being able to be yourself at all times, and not having the slightest concern or need to dread the chance of even being viewed or grouped by someone elses idea of who they think/assume you to be. Unfortunately I am overly-thankful for this simple yet powerfully calming & empowering level of personal respect because it is still a very rare scenario in the world and all over this country.
I dont want to blow this up as being revolutionary as it isnt really anything other than being treated as an adult, and as a human being; It's very sad for me to contemplate how mindblowingly night and day the difference in my faith in this life/world. How spiritually amazing I feel when I think that just from letting go of these fears that severely limited my capacity for optimism and my convictions in being able to always see possibilities that I all too quickly write off myself before even finishing the thought.
I am by far much happier than sad about my life and the profound personal realizations I have recently going over in my head. I am sad that I let this current world state get to me enough that I felt defeated by it so many times. And now looking at it from this angle, I still have more doubt than hope that my own country will honestly be anywhere close to being a place I could even try and be proud of. I cant begin to imagine how much fucking pain these kids in the newest generation could completely avoid ever having to feel just by having a bit of honest hope that is based on experience and confidence in one's own ability to correctly make their own individual decisions.
OK, that was a great thinking session that surprised me and was fueled in part by the shit eating grin danny howells planted on my face all of last night and is still there tonight.... :) One night that will always stick out as special and amazing, and for not only that, but also reminding me and renewing my faith in the fucking power of music, and the positively amazing human energy that you can be imparted with from the DJ without a single word spoken nor a single doubt of its sincerity......
Be well EVERYONE, and stop to think if you honestly havent paused to do so in a while