I'd like to change the fact that Steve's pictures are coming up on the forum index. This just continues to make it harder for me. I sat and read the entire thread when he passed away and I'm feeling ..... well pathetic.

Is everyone ok with taking down steve's pictures from the forum index?

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I'm okay with it. Its your call.

also, we are planning to do an event in May for his birthday celebration. Sean of WildchildWorld.com, the local promoter who had booked Steve and is a close associate of FSM for a decade now is open to utilizing his monthly club venue for this event. We are currently looking at having Hunter from West Virginia (who played with Steve for the majority of times in Pensacola, also live in Tampa for a bit and is originally from Panama City, FL), Steve Graham, and Garrick from Atlanta with Hafid Atzel aka The Light. We are still working on preliminaries. We will post ASAP when we can lock down the Saturday night date. Our intention was to do this as early as possible so many can make plans to attend (esp. Kamal and TomTom) and maybe make it another [MS] reunion.

Note for Steve Graham and Garrick - please contact Hafid Atzel aka The Light for details and getting info. so we can book your travel expenses ASAP.

God Bless and God Speed to ALL.

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Kamal - Your call dude. I wouldn't be offended, and I'm sure most will agree with you.

Scifi - The event sounds like it is going to be a good one.

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sounds good to me :) I'll get with Hafid this weekend

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Kamal, I will agree it is hard to see the pictures so if you want to take them down I am ok with it as well.

scifi pi, what a great idea. I wish you guys were closer so I could attend some of these events. I will always be there in spirit though

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I dont know, I mean I love Steve and miss him terribly, and when I see the pics it is hard to believe still.. but also seeing those pictures and remembering the times they were taken, brings a smile to my face, because they were such good times.. wmc06, pensacola meet up.. etc

just my .02

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I am with Steve, my reaction tends to be one of rememberance in a positive way, his sense of humor was unmatched.

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dont get me wrong, my response isnt negative, it just fucks me up to see him and it angers me that he never fucking told anyone what he went through when I begged him relentlessly .... seeing him there, esp when I'm puttin a few away makes it even harder and this guilt isnt helping me.

I lost a lot of friends back home when I was in India, but I dont think there has been one that did me in like Jibby's. Denial is a place that setup camp in my head even today.

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I can see both sides of it....like Kamal, seeing the pictures is hard and makes me sad, but I see Steve's side as well. I hadn't thought of it Steve's way before, but you are right. Seeing his smile and as well as in his element behind the decks also reminds me of happier times....

Whatever is decided I will be ok with it....either way he is always in my heart and in my mind.....man I miss him terribly :(

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I almost feel I shouldn't have an opinion as I only knew him from the forums. But whenever I see them I have a sad moment and then I find I am smiling at the obvious good times.

Having said that, If that is what it is doing to you Kamal, you should take them down, we all heal in our own way. Maybe just put them somewhere where people can look if they want!

Btw the ones that really shock are when someone pulls up an old thread :(

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I have mixed feelings about the album pics on the front page..I mean many members have pics with Jib in their albums so Jib's album is not the only one. Sometimes when I see them, they put a smile on my face but most of the time it's mainly painful to be remembered about what was and how it ended. I thought about asking the same Kamal did some weeks ago too but decided not to do it and "live with them" hoping it will get better over time.

[quote=scifi pi;709693]Our intention was to do this as early as possible so many can make plans to attend (esp. Kamal and TomTom) and maybe make it another [MS] reunion.[/quote]

Sadly not happening..no USA this Year for me. I hope to return next year to the States.

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do whatcha gotta do i guess

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I"m with you kamal on this mate.

cheers hafid

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its your call Kamal.

i know when i saw his famous Sesame Street picture of Bert & Ernie, it gave me a laugh, lol.

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I can only say that I feel solace in seeing those pictures. But it is not my decision to make. Are you planning on taking his whole profile down?

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I am still struggling with his death, and it is hard for me to see the pictures from his profile. I've been ok with seeing others with pictures of him from other people's profiles, and I view it as respect and remembrance. It's just weird to see them coming from his profile.

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I have a picture of him up in front of me as I sit here now, I like to look at him and remember what fun we had in Miami. So Taking them down wouldn't bother me either way.

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I say it is OK. It is time for us to move on. Not to forget but to move on. Not in a negative way. This was his decision you know? We have honored him in all sort of ways. Make sense? I know we all cared for him greatly. Defiantly some more than others. I think it would be a good thing to remove the pics. There is a lot of them.

From my own experience that when I see the pics I think to myself all that stuff that goes through your head like the what could have should have stuff. Do what your heart teels you to do.

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[quote=Kamal;710113]dont get me wrong, my response isnt negative, it just fucks me up to see him and it angers me that he never fucking told anyone what he went through when I begged him relentlessly .... seeing him there, esp when I'm puttin a few away makes it even harder and this guilt isnt helping me.

I lost a lot of friends back home when I was in India, but I dont think there has been one that did me in like Jibby's. Denial is a place that setup camp in my head even today.[/quote]

You need to remove them. You can not let his decision affect you so. It was his decision. I hope things get better Kamal. My heart is with you.

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or, you can just turn off that function and move on

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yea but the images on the top of clubs / djs / travel / etc. are a big attraction (from the site's perspective as well). It's cool, I'll leave 'em be.

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I meant turn them off on your profile :)

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[QUOTE=phuck'm-up;710822]. You can not let his decision affect you so. It was his decision. I hope things get better Kamal. My heart is with you.[/QUOTE] Seconded and well said!

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[QUOTE=Kamal;710113]dont get me wrong, my response isnt negative, it just fucks me up to see him and it angers me that he never fucking told anyone what he went through when I begged him relentlessly .... seeing him there, esp when I'm puttin a few away makes it even harder and this guilt isnt helping me.

I lost a lot of friends back home when I was in India, but I dont think there has been one that did me in like Jibby's. Denial is a place that setup camp in my head even today.[/QUOTE]

I have also lost a lot of friends, I think his profile should stay but pics should slowly be taken down from the streaming banner section.

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let me elaborate a little..

i think pictures of HIM should be removed because they always make my stomach a little bit unnerved :(

as for his random pictures, such as Sesame Street, i think those should stay up.

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^^But, those random pictures of him are coming from many users pictures. Are we really going to ask everyone to remove all pictures of him from their albums?? I don't think that is fair.

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^^ bingo!

if they are so difficult to look at, just click on the little arrows to the right of the random album pictures

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That's what I am not sure about. Because all of my albums that are up include pictures of him. Were you planning on deleting all of those?

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[quote=Steve Graham;711523]^^ bingo!

if they are so difficult to look at, just click on the little arrows to the right of the random album pictures[/quote]

I didn't even realize you could do this. I have now done this and it definitely helps to not see them. Kamal this may be the best solution for now. I have my days with the pictures as you know, and I don't want his profile deleted. I still visit it from time to time....I'm not sure why, or maybe I am just strange, but its comforting at times when I am missing him to visit it, and sometimes post a little note on his profile.

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lets just leave it, too much mis-interpretation over differing feelings.

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conflicting opinions indeed. i haven't personally said a whole lot about him since "the incident"... and on purpose. i believe he IS still with us in some shape or form. i completely understand those who don't like to be reminded but i like seeing his pictures, personally. i'm sorry this is has been so hard on you kamal and karen.

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Don't take him down !!!

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fuck I miss him.....